Still sick.

In fact, I've come to realize that I'm living the dream. But yes, I would like to live this dream life closer to the equator, not in these swamps....

I don't have to get up early in the morning. I get up at a more convenient time. As I dreamed about 15 years ago, I work as much as I am ready and willing.

I don't put myself on credit. I don't have to think about where to get crazy money to enable my child to get an education.

I socialize with people in society as much as I want to. And by the way, people are loaded with shallow uninteresting thoughts and I get tired of it quickly.

My basic needs are closed, although I lack a sense of security and trust in people, but I am working on these issues.

That all sounds very beautiful. I'm going to go think about why I don't notice all these positives in my daily life. Why is attention running away to something that isn't there yet?